I have an ankle that seems to have been pretty weakened. I've been spraining it about once a month for a while now, only lately it's been closer to every two weeks. Yesterday, a large, heavy, wrestler dropped a lot of his weight onto it suddenly. I actually took painkillers/anti-inflamitary pills for it last night, but it was still impressively swollen and painful all last night, and would not support weight this morning. I've been icing and elevating it all day, pretty much, and it's still swollen in pain. Also, the inside of it hurts, which is one of the warnings I was supposed to look for as a sign that it needs to be x-rayed.
I also bruised a rib and a cheekbone, and have many many sore muscles from lap tag, which involves a sort of wrestling (ask if you really wanna know how it's played). So why does all of this make me happy?
I think it comes down to the same reason I can't consider myself entirely female, ever. I'm fucking macho. Sad, I know. But I enjoy being in pain so I can shrug it off, pretend to ignore it and smile when it hurts because I'm not caring.
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ever since meeting many, many females in berkeley who relish in being under stress, or have pain that they ignore, I've pretty much uncategorized everything and disassociated that from being "male"
it's simply an action and a way of being not associated or connected in any way in being male or female. I do know of many females who do exactly the same, and just as many males who don't. So if the actual demographics change as to who has qualities and who doesn't, does it still belong in one particular category? I'll say no. If you want to define it that way, go for it, but it's just my thoughts.
And, macho or not, if you don't take care of it (x-ray possibly depending on how bad it really is) if you don't take care of it until it just dies on you for no good reason, that's just stupidity.
Well, of course, I'm getting it x-rayed. Not that stupid.
It just makes me feel male, and also that I'm competing with males in an area where they should have the advantage, and that was going to be my point, but I got distracted. I was going to move on to the competition side of it.
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