Thoughts on thoughts4

Not exactly thoughts on thoughts, but intended format is similar. Topic is dreams.

I've been saying lately that I hate dreaming. Lately, that's been true, too. The nature of my dreams hasn't changed much, so obviously (now that I'm writing/thinking) it must be a change of my views on my dreams. So now the question becomes: how do I change back? and: do I want to change back?

Yes, in that order. Changing back probably wouldn't be too difficult. I'd just have to get back into the habit of enjoying the strangeness of my dreams, and overlooking the amount of death/destruction/gore in them. That last thing brings up the second question. I don't want to be unaware of the problems in the world around me, but I don't know if that's even relevant to the dreamworld. Certainly, when I get hurt in dreams, I can make any pain or lasting damage go away fairly easily, and it's not so much that I'm unaware of the destruction, but that I decide it isn't important.

Also to think about: I will continue having strange dreams regardless of whether I hate them or not. Most people would decide that that made the logical course of action be to accept the dreams even if they do have qualities I hate in the waking world. My dreams have been particularly nasty since I started hating them. Accepting them sounds like a good idea, then.

Maybe I can manage to think about all this next time I dream, and try to help the people whose houses are in ruins, or who are going off to a war they aren't prepared for. I tend to be self-aware, creative, and aware that I'm dreaming in my dreams, so I should be able to do something, if I'm not to busy trying to follow the plot. I'll remember that next time I dream, if I can. And no more dreams about deals with the devil that result in the kitchen covered in candle wax, 'k subconscious? 'cause that was a really nasty dream, even if I did manage to not have to give up my soul due to creative ways to melt candles. No, I'm not going to explain the dream.